Can you see the mysterious dark, hooded charactor behind Alice?
This image taken from my latest Burlesque performance was my way of releasing Shame, Guilt and Suppression.
By showing up in this act I was speaking up for all of the women who can't. For women who's Shame stops them from speaking, stops them from saying 'No'' and keeps them trapped in a Shame cycle to which they feel unworthy of getting out of.
I want to tell you, it's not your fault, you are worthy of love and you can heal yourself, love yourself and stand up for yourself.
Alice is bound by chains that are so heavy she fights to stand up.
She removes the chains and becomes the FREE empowered Godess that she was born to be.
Performing next at Wicked Wonderland August 21st London UK
I love this picture as it represents Pre-stage connection. A powerful moment of calm before the excitement. New performers and experienced performers, all equal, non judging, holding each other up, sharing space for each other to become our best selves. Each of us on our own journey with an individual story to tell. This picture fills me with love. What spaces and people do you connect with to hold you up, keep you accountable and to hold hands with in moments of utter nerves/anxiety/depression. Who can you lean on? If no one, reach out in this group. You are not alone. www.findmywai.com
REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE -ACT by Alice Noir
I just want to stay here, for it hurts too much to move, I know they’re watching out there, will they disapprove?
I am lying in foetal position weighed down by these chains, chains of guilt and shame, do you think I am to blame?
The song plays in the background “this life is a dream, it will be over in the blink of an eye, remember who you are, remember what you are”
ALICE, look up, ALICE get up the audience awaits
They want to see you rise up, remove those chains and weight.
Shadows and shapes of faces unrecognisable, We may talk different languages but I think you are challengeable.
She continues to sing “who’s life is this, who’s hands are these, who’s voice is this? What am I”?
You see my vulnerability, I remove my victim clothes, I feel dirty and disgusted that I didn’t fight, I froze.
You see the truth of this act on my body, wait patiently and curious..
These clothes come off, my body is labelled in words so dark and glorious.
“this life is beautiful” “this life is horrible”
The beat comes in and I begin to rise strong, Baring all like this feels right, like the words to this song.
It’s time for My final reveal, My body uncovering
OMKARA sing along, Liberation from suffering.
It's already on it's way..
My shoulders are full of tension and my mind swirling like a washing machine. The moment I disconnect from distractions my emotions burst into the screen. Nothing makes any sense as I convers ate my way through all of the options. Listing, Ordering, Pro’ing and Con’ing. My ideas like a running Spider diagram, am I really back at this place wondering who I am? I’m eternally falling down the rabbit hole now I know the real world isn’t real, I consider myself conscious Alice, so why do I still numb how I feel? Maybe it’s not a problem, maybe that’s just how everyone else lives their lives. But I need to be able to sit in silence, block out the noise, be comfortable in the blackness when I close my eyes. Then really falling down the rabbit hole was just one level of awakening most don’t even take. And I’m now looking for the next level with urgency like “I’m late”, “I’m late”, “I’m late”!’ There never was a rush to be here I can connect the dots looking back. I can see each lesson and learning and realise I was never really in lack. So, If my life is abundant and I know all I ever needed to know, I don’t have to hurry for Fear of Missing Out and I can just watch as one dot runs the show. One dot, in a time line of dots attracted to eachother without rush, trying or force. I am in the right place, taking inspired action and surrendering to the Universe. AND I forgive myself, I forgive myself for falling asleep at the wheel, for failing to think. For forgetting it all and relaxing into my next drink. I am tempted by wanting more, I am curious Alice ready to explore I find contentment in very few ways, Maybe my kind of meditation is to write like back in the old days.. So you see as I write the answers spill out from this pen, if I want to be healed, If I want a cure.. The answer is to be content with LESS, and stop seeking MORE. Spend no money, use the resources I already have, save up, dream don’t DO, if you allow it will come to you, Stay in the NOW and remember the “Just for today….” And in doing so, the life you dream of is already on it’s way. It’s already on it’s way.